Thread 83021359

What part of your autism makes you unlovable? Is it your inability to pick up on social ques? Or can you just not experience love? Or maybe people just hate you because you are different?

>>83021359 (OP)
im boring, i dont let people get close, i am prideful and slow

I can't put on an act for people. I'm also either obsessed with someone to the point of discomfort, or I'm not interested at all.

>>83021359 (OP)
im inept so any man im with is gonna get embarassed publicly cause im megatarded

being autistic makes you undesirable because you're autisitc, you dumb fuck

>>83021381
why are you gay anon? why do you like kissing men?

>>83021434
im not gay anon. im a woman

>>83021449
Ah then your autism is just cute, the autism debuff only applies to guys femanon

>>83021469
no it applies to women. ive been called creepy and weird and embarassing to be around. my behaviour, in reality, is not cute to anyone. throwing ""tantrums"" (meltdowns) as a grown adult is not cute. nothing about being autistic is cute

>>83021359 (OP)
I have always and constantly been called creepy. No matter what I say or do it I've been told my demeanor creeps people out. I think it's my voice. It's very monotone and nasally like some fuck ass redditor. I've tried changing it and adding more emotion and then I'm apparently annoying. Obviously I don't get social cues because autism either. So I'm just fucked. I tried watching my facial expressions too like smiling and eyes to make sure it's not too intense and then I'm told I come across rude or disinterested. Eventually I realized I'm just ugly. So no matter what I do it's wrong. I'm also pretty good at my job on paper or in uni but in the real workplace I'm horrible because of all the social dynamics and the moving aspects of a real world scenario my retardation can't process it.

>>83021359 (OP)
My autism is what makes me loveable, anon
I don't know how but my lack of self-awareness is what draws folks to me
I've done so many cringe shit irl it's unreal

>>83021469
This is very true
>>83021484
Wrong you have a hole between your legs so no one cares

My insistence on direct, straightforward, no-bullshit communication means that I interpret flirting and playing coy as deception and it infuriates me.

>>83021515
>Wrong you have a hole between your legs so no one cares
ok so the literally everyone whos called me creepy, annoying and embarassing dont actually care and actually wanted me around? instead of bullying me into dropping out? anon please. yoire deluded. the world doesnt work like that. normies hate autists no matter what

>>83021359 (OP)
I'm odd. I have to suppress my personality around others in order to not make them uncomfortable and it's jarring when I let the mask slip because I get comfortable with someone and start sperging out about an interest of mine. I am alien to most people. As far as being unlovable to women too, it'd be that I'm a NEET, loser.

>>83021359 (OP)
My lack of personality and emotional instability

>>83021484
>>83021536
Well, to me that sounds a little cute, meltdowns are stuff you learn to work around in my limited experience with bpd, not sure if it's similar to autistic meltdowns. I guess what i'm trying to say is, marry me fembot?

>>83021359 (OP)
My being asocial and being content as a hermit. Oh, and being a non-Chad.
Yet if a foid actually wanted to fuck me, I'd fuck her as much as I could. Literally the best thing in life.
But no, they want 'muh dating' and 'muh travelling'. Fuck that!

>>83021566
Can you improve that?

>>83021381
I wouldnt think ur creepy nonny, but u wouldnt have wanna date another autistic, would you

>>83021359 (OP)
>what makes you unlovable?
I come across as annoying to people when all I can be is genuine and sincere. Also, I'm a female autist so I'm pretty masculine. I'm not very emotionally expressive and don't have a feminine voice or frame, which I think also makes people dislike me. Also, when I make mistakes, it's a much bigger deal compared to anyone else. I am just very unlikable.

I suck at social rituals on some primal level. I hate being polite so to say. Not that I screech around openly slurs at people but for example, I hate telling people happy birthday, I don't care about being late and often forget or misunderstand when I should say hello and goodbye.
I thinks that the most obvious shitty part about me.

Of course people also hate all my hobbies and I can be pretty creepy with my fixations. When a dude ghosted I actually went on to figure out his address and then climbed to his window freaking him out. I also literally don't hear anything when Im focused on something and that frequently pisses people off

>>83021831
just date ur fellow autists, nonny like is that too much to ask?

>>83021753
At this point I seriously doubt it. I've accepted I'll always be alone.

>>83021359 (OP)
I fixate on certain interests to the point where I can't focus on the actual necessities of life (building a career, maintaining relationships, basic household chores). I understand why that makes me pretty hard to tolerate, I get annoyed by other autists who do the same thing in favor of their own interests (and I'm sure others rightfully see me the same way). Still, every time I've tried to change and be a better person, I always get burnout and revert to pursuing my fixations, so I've just accepted that I probably won't ever be a very pleasant or functional person.

I am lovable. I have the good kind of autism that makes me silly and fun

>>83021960
No such thing anon. Women hate all male autists equally.

Im just ugly

>>83021359 (OP)
>mask eventually drops
>don't like to be touched
>too straightforward don't play social games
>don't like to talk to normies
>doesn't have money for nice clothes makeup haircut so look like goblin
I'm just going to marry another autist.

>>83021359 (OP)
I don't know why my personality is seen as a disease to be eradicated when literal psychopath narcissists can get away with murder. It's sickening absolutely sickening and I would never change myself for ANYONE why must I become a lobotomized HUSK just so that other people can feel slightly more comfortable. FUCKING KILL YOURSELVES NORMALPIGS

>>83022020
I don't think women realize I'm autistic instead of just a wackadoo

>>83022242
>marry another autist
gl with that anon, i wish female autists would ever date us

>>83021359 (OP)
m supposedly handsome and im also very social so i am not sure if its really autism but most people who are attracted to me tend to eventually be turned off because they see me get into streetfights and beat the bejeezers out of people
why is this a negative?
because i genuinely enjoy it and they can tell i enjoy it i dont really have anything going on for me in life except for beating people up lol, no idea why its such a huge adrenaline and dopamine boost to me but it just is
the biggest regret is that i lost my relationship with my childs mother because of this but its whatever

>>83021359 (OP)
i think attraction is not wholly age based. But, I don't find people my age attractive. I find girls attractive, not women.

>>83022526
i dont share this with you but i do have a piece of advice to share with you which has helped plenty others in your shoes, you should go find a high vantage point and jump off it you pedophile fucking filth

>>83022540
you are a typical close-minded little bitch

>>83022540
you're very boring and about as intimidating as a chihuahua

>>83021359 (OP)
I have an inability to read social cues and rooms, am rigid in my thinking at times, have oddball tastes that no one likes, hyperfixate on things no one cares about etc

Also I have been called "the creep"/"creepy" by kids in hs so that stuck

im been told im boring to talk to and ghosted by every girl who has ever added me from r9k or soc. i just dont know how to be normal or have a conversation with girls. its usually just the typical "how are you? what are your hobbies" typical bullshit. some of us just werent made for life i dont think is this some form of autism i have that i dont know about? plus im an ugly subhuman troglodyte

>>83021536
You are a woman so it's understandable no one wants you around or cares.
>The world doesn't work like that
Women can literally sell feet pics and make a livable income your gender deserves to be chained to the kitchen and never leave.
>Normies hate autists no matter what
Women cannot have autism that is a disability that affects humans and women are not humans

you know what's worse than that, anon? being a Hispanic autist. I remember in middle school that I was a boarderline neurotic freak, openly flipping out at my own bullies or really any misfortune that happened to me (though I wasn't at the level of kids with anger issues). I used to attend summer schools that weren't for missing work the year before, but emotional control classes filled with weirdos and completely low functional children. This was only throughout my elementary years though.

In case you're wondering, yes, I was TERRIBLE at academics. I swear that I had even sensed that all the white assistant teachers throughout my life just pitted kids like me. Being statically a subhuman has really made me closed off after high school. it was awful.

>>83021359 (OP)
Do you mean autism colloquially or literally? Because I don't have it but I'm a 34 khhv and idk I became a shut in and I've gone too long away from people and feel totally alienated from real life. idk I've always desired relationships but always felt separate from people

>>83023272
I'm not like an ESL grassmower who's just all "LA RAZA, LA RAZX" but I'm still a satistical stereotype. Zero hope in being a physicist or a doctor and what not. But also not strong or socialable enough to be an essential labourer. (jobless)

It got to a point were a little after covid, I was offered WELFARE for being double minority that's jobless. It was also because my dad happed to be retired. He of course turned it down though.

I know I sound off topic to OP's query of being loveless and all, but yeah I'll say that with all these sperg factors attached to me? Clearly, none of it got me a girlfriend. Only two online relationships, and one of my bullies found out and mocked me with it. Fuck my life.

>>83021359 (OP)
I'm too subconsciously scared of intimacy in any shape or form, so I isolate myself from friends, family, and very rarely if ever, possible dates. it's not like I dislike any of those people or I do it on purpose, but its like my brain starts going full defensive mode and every social interaction becomes life-or- death or overly analytical on my end. It doesn't help I mask all of the fucking time, so both together drain my energy for anything outside of social interaction up to weeks at a time.