>>83046945 (OP)
>very limited drugs and pretty much no guns?
It's pretty clear from reading this that you don't really want to kill yourself and this is your cry for help. (Canadian cities are absolutely overrun with drugs and it's not that hard to get a shotgun or a rifle in Canada.)
Since you're on /r9k/ I assume that you feel depressed for the usual reasons, tfw no girlfriend and lonliness in general. Since you're Canadian your sadness is probably exacerbated by unemployment, or working full time at a job that pays you just enough to have busfare to get to work every day. But things can get better, you have to focus on yourself and learn to enjoy the little things in life. And what if there's a cute girl you're destined to fall in love with? Maybe you're supposed to meet her at a Christmas party someone drags you to, or some other odd twist of fate. If you're young there's still hope for you, OP.