>>40193542
yeah, i guess i've never felt like i've had it to begin with, but only now at 26 am i really, concretely, knowing it.
idk how to come to terms with this. im ugly, physically and emotionally, and mentally ill
and i don't even have any redeemable factors to overcome this

i was born alone, my life has been alone, and i will almost definitely be dying alone

my only choice is to become absorbed into dumb video games to distract myself from reality, give my life purpose for a moment. but no one (rightfully) cares about my capabilities when it comes to a useless video game

>>40114998
first off, if you havent started hrt, do it. if your actually this miserable, it will only help

as someone who has said
>just (want) someone to love, and be loved by. Someone real. I want to hold her and play dumb games and fall asleep next to her.
almost word-for-word, i understand how you feel greatly, (like, i've prob used that op pic 10000x in posts here) and is the absolute worst-case outcome for you, i can confidently say at least get on hrt, its the one thing that truly, drastically prevents damage over time. testosterone will destroy everything it can given opportunity

>>40115133
>>40115229
>Then become the girlfriend
this sounds infinitely more fetishistic than anything op has said desu