>>713097326
>>713095837
>>Smithsonian
what does it mean?

My ex-boyfriend broke up with me two months ago. A month after the breakup he contacted me and tried to get back together and I, like the stupid bitch that I am, gave him space to redeem himself. In two weeks of talking and sneaking out I found out that he had sex with another girl during the time we didn't talk. Not just any girl, she's the worst option of all, the ugliest and most disgusting I've ever seen. This girl in question was the lover of my best friend's ex (her ex cheated on her with the girl who later slept with my ex). She brags about picking up committed men among other things, in general she is disgusting and bizarre.

After I found out about this I was very disgusted, I cried a lot, desperately, and I cut contact with my ex again. Sex is a sensitive topic for me, I have always respected my limits a lot about it. When I was younger I swore that I would save myself for the love of my life or that I would stay a virgin as long as I could for the "charm".

I recently got in touch with my ex again and it wasn't bad... even though I constantly feel bad about the whole thing I'm happy to talk to him. Yesterday he invited me to his house to have sex, which I swore would never happen again. But it happened, and it was really good... I hate myself for it, I don't know exactly how I should feel. I try to think that these are things in life, but at the same time I think I should feel like a stupid whore, which is what I am.