>>528099174
>>528098962
God dammit I'm going to start filtering all of my posts through chatGPT so that they become stylistically unrecognizable. It's complicated. It shouldn't be, it probably isn't, and the conflict isn't even well defined because I absolutely do not care about the deviation from societal norms on a conscious level. I try not to think about it terribly often beyond planning contingencies, excuses, etc. so forgive me if it's a partially-unformed thought, but I think the issue is that I have no issue except for the phantom that lurks behind you saying that your feelings are entirely selfish and you're inflicting them on another person. If I didn't have the capital-"I" baggage associated with it I would probably just accept that I found a woman who likes me (i.e. a complete mental case) for some inexplicable reason and leave at that, but that looming shadow forces me to re-evaluate all of the actions of my life and weigh them against my conscience to validate myself, as though I need to make sure I didn't do anything manipulative consciously or unconsciously.

That probably doesn't make any sense, but that's just a stream of consciousness that I didn't proofread.

>>527697294
Men care more about that than women do. Men want to be their first, women want to be their last.