How the fuck can I just forget about a woman? I rarely have contact with any am pretty confident I haven't met a single one outside of work in a decade, but a girl I fell for when I was a teenager still haunts my dreams. I don't think about her, we were not in relationship(we were in a friends group and about all our romantic interactions boiled down to was me asking her out, she agreeing and then texting we shouldn't spend time together 3 hours later), I have no idea what happens to her now that we're double the age we were back then, and I don't want to know. However I sometimes dream about her and it's like a nightmare but instead of scary it's depressing. I then feel down the entire day. Today I wake up in sweat, feel down and as the fog clears I remember another dream with her. What's worse it's happening more frequently.
The moment I've recognised the social life is not gonna work out for me I've tried to adapt to it to at least make loneliness bearable but now this is making me want to die.

What is your go to method to inflate tires?