Guys I need some serious help/advice. This is the situation:
I'm a trainee about to transfer to a new team. I received an invite from someone higher up to join the new team's daily standups and I accepted.
So I join one of these meetings (over MS Teams), I didn't announce myself or anything since that would have been awkward/weird and it's not like they really care who I am, plus I didn't want to interrupt. Now I did know there was some tension between the two teams (my current team and this other team I'll be joining) but I guess I didn't realise the extent of it. Because part way through some of them really started complaining and whining about my current team, which also extends to me. It wasn't until the end of the meeting that I guess they realised I was there and asked me "Oh you're with us now?". Btw it was already announced at a larger sectional meeting that I'd be joining the team, but I guess they didn't care.
So now that I've gotten myself into this awkward situation, how do I get myself out of it? I'm guessing they all probably hate me now, right?

so ive been 9.5 months on hrt now, 10mg/week EEn (voix celeste).
my testosterone is def suppressed cuz no masculinization (eg no new facial hairs, scalp way drier than used to be, no ejaculate or if anything its transparent, and (sorry for the are slash em tee eff ahh statement but idw leave things out) orgasms feel different too))

but like aside from no more masculinization theres basically no feminization how come? all i have is breast buds (appeared at abt 2 weeks) and slight bumps, at most like early tanner 2 i think no where near 3

Could this be because of E being too high? Im kinda lazy to get a bloodtest, but like did anyone have it that they werent getting any changes, then found out their E is too high, then lowered it, and then changes came?

i eat fine and will try wait cycling now, though like breast growth isnt just fat its tissue aswell so even if ur weight doesnt change u should still get breast growth. But im on 9.5 months and literally flat, which is worrying, maybe g*d cursed me with partial estrogen insensitivity or somn like that, just to make my shitty tranny life even shittier :(

I am loveless. I have no one. I have nobody.

nothing ever happens