>>33464197
Also, I still have one more year left of college. But it's gonna be a really depressing one.

I could've lived in this cool frathouse with cool white kids, and at least drunk / partied my sorrows away to cope, if my parents hadn't royally fucked over my life.

And it hurts that I feel as if I'm the same or even worse compared to myself last year. Last year I was dreading an impending internship grind, fearing every company whose programs I applied to would toss me out the window. I had thought I'd be more prepared compared to the year before since I had more experience, and I actually did get a few interviews in, but sadly none panned out.

And this year (a fall co-op grind proving equally humiliating) I'm too old for most internships actually. I have to apply to full-time or new-grad jobs, and if internships were this challenging, full-time is going to be an absolute bloodbath.

Job-finding literally makes me feel like one of those Asian kids from those old videos of the British royal family visiting Asia and throwing pennies at them like they would seeds to sparrows.

To be honest I'm starting to despise CS, SWE, coding projects, and everything. The bar is so fucking high and literally everyone else is better than me. AI doesn't lower the bar, it raises it, now you have to be better than the AI at everything, and I am NOT better than the AI at everything. I hate this, I really fucking hate it. All I want is to be able to afford my own life and place to live, and make some money, and work in an office.

I've heard other countries might have things a bit better, and that's why so many losers run to Japan and Thailand. I actually know someone 1 year older than me in my school who's using money he accumulated from a retail job of several years to book it to Japan. But I'm not sure my parents would even let me. I'm too financially dependent on them to cut them off, and they sure know it. They even talked me out of studying abroad.

I fucking hate everything.

My senior year's gonna start in less than 1 month. Been trying my luck at fall co-ops and that sort of thing, but keep getting filtered out by most companies.

Even ones I apply less than an hour of the posting. Even local ones that hire a lot of grads from my school. Even government organizations looking for some chud to help them out with xyz data management thingie. Even after using AI to help specially tailor literally every single version of my resume I send out within reasonable bounds.

Since I've actually started getting interview invitations junior year but far too late, I actually seriously contemplated delaying graduation. But my sustained high rejection rate these days is putting these methods into serious jeopardy.

I just wish someone could've nepoed me into something these past summers. Was actually talking to this white freshman last spring (now a rising sophomore) who snagged some cybersecurity internship this summer despite knowing jack shit about it, which his mom got him.

>>106140815
Discrete was super easy for me and I enjoyed it. Aced both of the ones I had to take.

Algos was a bit more of a struggle lol.

>>106140677
>>106140780
>calc
I'm taking multivariate calc next semester, wish me luck anons.