I think I’m probably not focusing on the present enough these days like I think it’s really holding me back it’s not entirely my fault because I think it’s situational somewhat which leads me to dwelling a little bit it’s an extremely I guess trying situation to be in so I’m not sure what’s normal anymore it’s sort of been thrown out the window

That quite really helps me feel better “let the past die” I’m not sure if it’s the saying or if forcing myself to be in the present really helps like I’m really forcing myself with great energy.

But I find that when I feel like I’m getting stuck in the past and I try to focus on the present a lot of the time I end up just feeling a lot of anger, so much that it seems like anger is a regular part of my existence I do get sad but to get myself out of feeling down or overwhelmed with sadness I end up feeling anger instead
but it helps me keep motivated I think

I don’t think forgiveness really helps, whoever came up with that never felt pain all the way in their bones kind of thing, they haven’t had to endure a lifetime of anguish and needless suffering though it’s kind of a state of mind maybe in some instances? It’s hard to be sure. But that’s dwelling again and uh then if I try to ignore that I just feel angry

Obviously that’s the problem, so I think I’m correct in my assertion.