his videos are well made but he tries too fucking hard its so annoying. he tries to go full zen monk on everyone with his clickbait yt videos

How do i reconcile my interest in travel with my desire for contemplative life? Throughout the years i collected so many books, got interested in so many reasoning systems, that now i can spend years just not leaving my house and reading my wishlist. At my best moments, when not straying away from the way i got lot of subtle pleasure from quiet contemplation of world and God through the dialogue with all these great thinkers, it also increases enjoyment of travel enormously if i have sufficient historical or relligious context to know exactly what i am looking at and why i am looking at it. On the other hands its hard to move books across the countries too often (i have kindle but reading from it has its own issues). I imagine after years that subtle enjoyment may get turned into bitterness about coping and wasting my life if i get too complacement, too comfortable. I dream about fulfilling spiritual and intellectual journeys - where can i find it?
Any monasteries, temples, retreats where you yourself have found the peace you looked for?
I am 30 that year and my desire for hedonistic desire is slowly waning away but there are some crumbs left in me. In following travel destinations i have to reconcile it with deeper, spiritual desires ("there has to be more to life")