>mlb kita in 130

people spent thousands for this?

24KHHV. Obviously i would like a woman I can split rent with and fuck on a regular basis, but the other aspects of a relationship just seem weird and confusing? Laying out what I did for the whole day, everyday, it sounds exhausting as fuck. Even the people I like most in this world (and i consider myself blessed with good friends and family), if I have to interact with them more often than 1-2 times a week, start to get on my nerves. Spending my whole life with someone elses needs in mind, it sounds like so much effort. And I think someone doing the same for me would make me feel uncomfortable and waited upon in a gross way.

The only way all of this makes sense in my mind is if that thing the normies call "love" makes you not give a shit about the above, but if thats true, than it would entail such a paradigm shift in how i see the world around me that I can't believe its actually a thing. In fact even sex is beginning to seem like a complete abstraction, just 2 shapes moving in a certain way, all completely theoretical as far as my personal experience is concerned. The longer I am khhv for, the less human I feel, it's insane to me that people just interface with eachother in this way so naturally, I feel like an alien.

how do I get over this feeling of dissociation/disgust with the sexual and romantic aspects of being a human?

ps dont ask me to get a hooker i know for a fact i wont get hard with some revolting bitch that had to be paid to tolerate my presence