>>81866235
>why you stay alive when you're so convinced that the world is not worth the trouble?
because it might not be worth it for me, but it might be worth it for others and i want to help them fight for it
>why do you go out of your way to post hu tao art on 4chan and try to cling to others for hope?
i foolishly hope that someone will come and save me from my own self i guess.
>we're just as used to it as all of those, so we desensitize ourselves to it.
i guess i just wished people realized how fucked up it is and not just dismissed it as "oh its just life". i feel like im the only person that cares so much. and it makes me think im crazy.
>who are you doing this for then?
i dont know. i ask myself that question everyday, and the answers vary. they go from my mom, to my friends, to no answer whatsoever.
>i care enough to answer
and i'm very grateful. im grateful for every anon that stops in threads of people that need support and tries to help. but i am so very greedy. i cannot seem to ever be satisfied with what i have, even though i wish i was.
>>81866388
i wish religion to worked on me. art does work to an extent, i guess. still, so far nothing has been enough

>>81750971
its starting to get to a point where im actively planning on a way to die and starting to do everything i want to do before i want to kick the bucket (even though i cant find the motivation to do anything) so id say kind of bad