My gf rewired my brain when we were both 18 and 19 for several years because she would do whatever I want it but here's the catch:it was long distance and I only smashed her once irl. Every night she we would Skype and she would do anything you can imagine. From then on she became a famous reddit whore, onlyfans model and pornstar. For 9 years or so now I have been gooning to her every night. I had to block her back then because she was getting too much and had BPD, she stalked me for years, I took her virginity so go get back at me she became a pornstar I guess and now she has herpes.

If I do not goon to her one night, I can't go to sleep. It fucks up my gains, my lifts and I can't talk to other women because none of them stalk me like she did or are as intense. I guess she ruined my life and rewired my brain, she was a literal 10. She is a fat whale now but the videos of her in her prime are all out there and it's fucking me up. I do 1/2/3/4 every day but this is the hurdle I just can't get past. I can't do this shit. The closest to her is someone like Skin Diamond but that girl you need to pay to see and my ex fucked me because she genuinely loved me and I made her wet, like I would take off her panties and they'd be soaking wet and I'd make fun of her for it.

Brazilian gf: expectation

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for me it was a brunette with curly hair and huge eyes. I loved her. I had sex with her. But we weren't meant to be together, not right now.

I had to walk away.

it hurt like hell. But I walked away. Some things aren't meant to be and I have to take care of myself. We broke up over a misunderstanding. One of her friends lied about me.

you know the pain of having people lie about you and break you up. But if you're that easy to break up you weren't meant to be together.

maybe sometime later. But not now. We simply weren't meant to be together right now. Not if she's going to believe what other people say about me. There's no way past that. If she doesn't trust me we can't have a relationship.

As a brown man myself, I want an equally brown gf, like pic, and it seems like I'm the only one who doesn't care to have a blonde, white girlfriend

Dad asked for 30k to pay off credit card debt. Paid him and then he ran off and left my mom with her credit card debt still at 60k. She is asking me to pay it because she cant. My gf is furious and threatening to leave if I pay my mom because then we won't be able to afford a house.
This sounds bad but my grandma is going to leave my mom 1.5mil inheritance when she dies. So should I pay my mom and somehow get on the will? Or should I just take the hit and start from scratch? I will have to sell my extra car and take money out of my brokerage account to do this. I only make 110k a year so this shit is a lot of money to me. The bills have to be paid!!!