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>>40179491
and thats what ppl keep telling me, but i have this unclear aversion to going towards any other church. ig i feel very attached to catholicism specifically. Maybe i would get something out of returning to some institution that does in some way reject me; i might just be seeking a certain approval or maybe its that continuing on with catholicism as a transwoman in spite of the views of the church would itself be important to me. i really don't know what it is im looking for, i just know that i am looking for something

>>40075006
i haven't gone to mass since i was a teenager but i prayed for the first time in years on friday night and broke down crying, then on sunday i woke up early and got dressed to go to church but i didn't end up going bc im a tranny and god doesn't love me, bc what loving god would make me a tranny