>>528586609

>tore my ACL, still went jiu jitsu
>fuck up my miniscus, still went jiu jitsu
>had surgery for my ACL, torn it again, still went jiu jitsu
>got epilepsy, still went jiu jitsu despite having a seizure at the gym
>every time I roll, it's like battling the seizures over the actual rolling itself.
>every time I go to the gym I the only thing on my mind is the fear of spazing again, leading me into having another spazz

Should I just get into judo? Is that less intense? That would fuck up my ACL though no? Maybe I'm doomed to become a fucking golfer.

It's sad because once jiu jitsu was the thing that stopped me from wanting to kill myself. Now it's the thing that makes me want to kms.

What's a good all purpose rendering brush?

I suck at art.