>trying to figure out how my menu UI is going to work
why is this so hard wtf

Mid twenties AGP. I've been stuck in this weird aching place for years, caught between wanting to be a girl and not feeling like a man, and not good enough to try. I see all these cute mtfs online, funny, flirty, messy, loved - and I just feel like a ghost watching from the other side. I want tom be like them. I want to be with them. But I'm still here, awkward, stupid, dissociated. Cooming daily just to feel something. Too Scared to move forward, too ashamed to stay like this.

I'm not even looking for some fantasy, just someone to love, and be loved by. Someone real. I want to hold her and play dumb games and fall asleep next to her. Not Perfect. Just alive.

Don't know if ill ever transition because of the fear, don't even know I am. But i'm tired of rotting alone. I want this life to be different. I want something to hold on to. That's all.