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hello/cut/, I did it again, at first I wasn't doing it right and no blood wanted to come out but in the evening I tried again and sticked the needle deeper and it worked. Though the blood didn't flow out, it more so dripped out and stopped after a while, I wonder if the needle isn't too small or maybe I should be using a tourniquet

hello /cut/, instead of cutting I sometimes play with hypodermic needles, for a long time I would just stick them through myself but today I tried and managed to successfully stick it in my hand vein and let some blood out

I'm very happy about this because when I tried doing that last year I pussied out
I feel like it's an achievement because I have managed to overcome and conquer my fear of needles and blood, I used to get lightheaded when I had to get my blood taken due to getting traumatized by it as a kid but now I feel like I have won over my fear :)

I'll try it again tomorrow