>>81768380
do you really care about any of the shit you've been writing daily novels about or are you just lonely

How do I get a 4chan bf?

Fugly foid recently turned tolerably attractive. Long ago, I accepted I would be alone forever. Not because of muh self pity but because it's what I genuinely enjoy. But it kicked in... a slight curiosity of what it feels like to be near the opposite sex. To be held and to be desired. Downloaded normie dating app and got to work.

Matched with a wonderful person. Spoke all day, every day over text and on the phone and finally had our first date yesterday. After spending a dream-like day on the beach, he took me to his condo where he insisted I blow him. With an uncomfortable demeanor, my rejection was obvious. In the end, all he wanted was a quick hook up.

I really liked him...

So why go through all that trouble? Why butter me up for so long and so intricately? Was I supposed to be a whore? Did I fuck up with a wonderful person because I didn't want to suck his dick on the first date? Is this what happens on dates? Is this how it's always gonna be? Am I retarded?