>>40497071
i do this every year or two like clockwork now

>constant thoughts of "what if im trans, i dont want to be a man
>take hrt
>get disturbed by the sudden zero libido and growing tits
>cope for a while then detrans
>after a few months start freaking out over masculinization and repeat the cycle

i know its over but i have to keep deluding myself because otherwise i have nothing, no identity and no hope.

>>40073467
at least as a hon ill look slightly better than i do as a man