>borderline insane neet
>come from rich family
>everybody moved all over the place and lives off their money
>im constantly getting flown aroudn from place to place and spending time with different parts of my family
>meeting extented relatives i dont really know and having to hug them and not being able to remember their names
>going to fancy restaurants and talking about how their daughter in law ive never met is moving to a new place
>family has split up from one another and are all vying for my approval as like the "innocent one" in the family
>sorta getting burned out and wanna live my own life but i've been a total failure in my responsibilities and dont deserve to ask for that
>can't find a job and the gap in my resume looks terrible now; no work experience out of college
it feels like such a schizo experience. i know my life is extremely privileged compared to other people but I don't even know how to navigate this situation. my grandpa died and owned multiple houses and i got offered to live in one of the houses but then id have to be closer to family and have obligations towards them but im with my mom and spending all my time with her now. things were a lot easier when the family was together but now my parents are divorced and my brother is estranged and my grandpa is widowed and im having to juggle so many people in my family that dont get along anymore.
i feel like a character from a victorian novel and i just want a chill loser nerd life. had to stop playing final fantasy cause couldnt do my weeklies and stuff

all human souls are the reincarnations of angels. demons who were reincarnated into humans on earth become demons when they die as well. the light told me this in a dream and demons confirmed it. If you are born incarnated with a demon soul you will never go to the light when you die. this is where the "archon" resistance falsehood emerges. they see people with souls spiritually charged towards light go to light and they do not because they are dark. the light chooses where to exist and then the darkness exists where there is no light. but its not evil, thats an abrahamic misunderstanding because "YHWH" is a light demon or angel if you prefer that ascends further through worship and has become unstoppable in the spiritual plane. you can still avoid it quite easily though. yhwh lives inside the brightest light and if you enter the light as a demon there's a loud screaming sound like a mix of a bell and nails on chalkboard that drive you away