What are you supposed to do when you know working at your current company has killed any interest you had in programming and know leaving is your best bet yet in order to do so you need motivation, discipline and maybe a touch of passion that is long gone?

Dear A,

The very fact that you thought I was capable of doing something like that, more so, that you were genuinely convinced I did it, makes me sick and I feel deeply insulted.
You were the only friend I thought I could be open with, and you just proved I was wrong.
I hold no grudges against you and I wish you the best, but I won't be able to feel the same way around you ever again.

S