i go first!
>ASL
18/female/usa
>about
i pretty much never shower, and when i do its because im forced to go outside. i try to avoid leaving the house as much as i can though. im schizoaffective and every time i go outside i get extremely paranoid and want to run away. im medicated but it doesnt work!! i cut my hair pretty short because i hate the feeling of hair on my face, it makes me want to rip it out. i have scars up and down my arm, theyre hypertrophic and/or keloids, so theyre pretty visible. im not fully white, and i hate my race. i wish i was just a normal white girl. im a neet and want to be forever, but my mom is making me get training for a job. i have no social skills. ive been fat for awhile but lately ive been really hating the feeling of food in my mouth and stomach. i dont have friends and dont talk to anyone outside of my mom and grandma. im grossly ugly. please dont ask to see.
>looking for
someone who isnt put off by my post
people who will give me empty compliments that ill believe are real
>please leave your contact, im too scared of posting mine

I already know I'm likely schizoid/ developing it as I get older, confirmed by psychologist. I feel little to nothing for people. Throughout my life I've had little value in everyone around me, even my "crushes" were mostly just me wanting to care, even though I didn't.

That only goes for real people though. There are people that are very real to me but not to the average person. Best way I could describe it so someone understands, is that they're characters in my head, but I really don't think of them like that.

I think of them as friends and family really. I've gotten to know them over time and develop relationships, I've met more over time.
I'd say that they're more of concepts, its not like they talk to me in my head or I hallucinate them. More that they're with me in the way a dead loved one would be, or away somewhere, for lack of better words.

I can feel this way about characters from media too. Just like people, I get along with some better than others.

I've ruled out a ton of possibilities as to why I am this way, but I'm still not really sure about the answer. So, is it a schizoid thing or am I just parasocial? Or something else?
I'll do my best to answer any questions if you have any, if you want to get a better idea of what I'm talking about

>Morning hits
>all the normalfags wake up
Here comes all the fetish, porn, sexist, gender war, and bait posting.
Time to hide more than half the fuckin site...