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7/13/2025, 4:36:34 AM
>>81808208
>what do you usually do in a day?
watch anime, play vidya, cry, stare at the walls, mindlessly browse forums, there's not much for me to do
>>81808212
i did say i'd do all that
>>81808217
that's literally what i said so yes
>what do you usually do in a day?
watch anime, play vidya, cry, stare at the walls, mindlessly browse forums, there's not much for me to do
>>81808212
i did say i'd do all that
>>81808217
that's literally what i said so yes
7/7/2025, 4:09:28 PM
>>81743762
>>81743852
>You work towards that and reward yourself with something good after a hard day of work and you'll feel at least a little better.
literally that's my ideal life. i wish i had a decent paying job and a group of friends with similar interests to hang out with and look forward to doing fun things with after work like going to a convention, going to the beach, going to buy merch of our favorite characters etc etc
life is so bleak when you're all alone and you have literally nothing to look forward to. it's twice as bleak when you're mentally ill and trapped in an eastern european village. i'm suicidal because i just don't realistically see any way that my life could improve from this point onward. for the past 4 years i tried everything i could to become "normal": working out daily as i said, getting into cooking and making healthy meals for myself daily, trying my hardest to get a job and get hired, trying to meet people and form genuine long lasting connections AND so on and so forth. and after all that time, i'm literally in the exact position i was all my life, all alone as a mentally ill hikkineet. not a single thing in my life changed, no matter how much i willed it to. i can't help but feel hopeless. i'll never have otaku friends and be able to do cool nerd things with them. i'll never have anything. i just want this anxiety and this feeling of being punched in the cut constantly to go away. i don't know what to do anymore. i wish euthanasia was legal here, i'd spend the remainder of my savings on that. my birthday is coming up soon and all i wish for is to be euthanized so i can stop living this meaningless and empty life. i can't take spending another birthday alone. i don't have a single happy memory in my entire existence. not a single moment when i felt genuine joy and carefree happiness and fun. i just don't see the point in doing this anymore. i'm a plight on the world and there's not even anyone there who'd miss me if i were gone.
>>81743852
>You work towards that and reward yourself with something good after a hard day of work and you'll feel at least a little better.
literally that's my ideal life. i wish i had a decent paying job and a group of friends with similar interests to hang out with and look forward to doing fun things with after work like going to a convention, going to the beach, going to buy merch of our favorite characters etc etc
life is so bleak when you're all alone and you have literally nothing to look forward to. it's twice as bleak when you're mentally ill and trapped in an eastern european village. i'm suicidal because i just don't realistically see any way that my life could improve from this point onward. for the past 4 years i tried everything i could to become "normal": working out daily as i said, getting into cooking and making healthy meals for myself daily, trying my hardest to get a job and get hired, trying to meet people and form genuine long lasting connections AND so on and so forth. and after all that time, i'm literally in the exact position i was all my life, all alone as a mentally ill hikkineet. not a single thing in my life changed, no matter how much i willed it to. i can't help but feel hopeless. i'll never have otaku friends and be able to do cool nerd things with them. i'll never have anything. i just want this anxiety and this feeling of being punched in the cut constantly to go away. i don't know what to do anymore. i wish euthanasia was legal here, i'd spend the remainder of my savings on that. my birthday is coming up soon and all i wish for is to be euthanized so i can stop living this meaningless and empty life. i can't take spending another birthday alone. i don't have a single happy memory in my entire existence. not a single moment when i felt genuine joy and carefree happiness and fun. i just don't see the point in doing this anymore. i'm a plight on the world and there's not even anyone there who'd miss me if i were gone.
6/21/2025, 12:03:13 AM
>>713206002
i feel you op. wish i had friends but i'm just a disabled neet living in the middle of nowhere with no hope for the future.
i feel you op. wish i had friends but i'm just a disabled neet living in the middle of nowhere with no hope for the future.
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