nobody undstands me

I hate going out in public and seeing couples my age or younger holding hands or where they guy has the girl under his arm.
What do they have that I don't? Why could that never be me?

Why can’t I bring myself to message people anymore?
I’ve always been nonverbal irl but have always been somewhat excessive with talking to people online or texting. It used to be regular for me to have at least 2 close online friends.
But now, I unintentionally ghost people all the time and it just feels like a huge chore to even read a message, even if things as small as someone that’s trying to help me with something or providing a service.

I wish I had my own foid.

I messed my student and education life up so bad that I think I'll kill myself over it.

>tfw no brainrot gf to yap about fnaf lore or some other vidya trivia/lore stuff

I need a hug :(
I need her back.
miss what did I do wrong?

I'm starting to go crazy the more I think about how in less than a month I'm 23 and still never had a gf or anything like that.
I force myself to go outside but I don't even know what I should do.
I just want a girl to hang out with and do stuff and experience life with.

If any fembots are reading this. What do you do when you are outside and what kind of context would you prefer a guy approaching you?

I hate being male so much.
If I was female I would have found love already. Guys will literally seek you out if you are even halfway decent looking. Most women literally complain about getting too much attention from men.
It wouldn't have mattered as much that I am behind in life because women aren't expected to make a ton of money or have a good career or high education or at least people care about that less than if you are a man. You can always stay at home if you want to which is basically just neeting but with kids to play with.
If you are female you are not judged by your genetics as harshly. It would not matter how tall you are unless you are freakishly tall or a dwarf. Almost no men would care. You wouldn't be judged as harshly for your face and even if it was subpar you can always learn makeup.
You would not be expected to be fit and people might even find it attractive if you are a bit chubby.
And best of all; You would never have to worry about balding unless you have some rare disease.

And trooning out doesn't help, sadly.