>>81477463
man i'm sorry. you are probably fucked. unfortunately you (probably) ruined your brain with pornography. I'll bet it's not impossible to get it back, though. Just don't be one of those retards who have broad shoulders and tries putting on a skirt or something, dude it'll never look good. Here's what I think you ought to do:
find an appreciation for masculinity, and then become more masculine. If you can't do this you're genuinely going to be permanently upset for life, because you'll NEVER look anything like a woman, or feminine, ESPECIALLY as you age. If you don't believe me, get a tape measure (preferably immediately) and compare the size of your ribcage, waist, and hips to the sizes of the average woman. Make sure you measure properly. Don't bother trying to change reality, you can't, but maybe you can change your mindset, and maybe you can change your taste. There's nothing wrong with looking masculine, men look great, too. Choose masculinity, choose strength. Your only other alternative is hideous, weak masculinity, because you will never achieve femininity.
Find a style of clothes that you think looks good, same with hair, and get more muscular.

>>81477745
I wouldn't let you.

>>81477489
>>81477492
It's not over for you at all, not even close. You need to train deadhangs for your grip strength, and negatives for your back strength. Do those consistently to failure, something like 4 sets every 2 or 3 days, and within 2 months you should be able to do 3 or 4 pull ups. From there you just keep doing pull ups to failure and you'll increase the amount like anyone else. good luck.>>81477495
They wouldn't need to defend themselves. I'd just preemptively rape you first.