>>40420481
stupid yes cute no

>Be me, in twenties, KHHV
>Meet online best friend of 4+ years
>Goes well they take me to a bunch of cute places
>Goes sexual (frotting, oral, but no penetrative)
>Afterwards uncontrollably cry and sniffle
>They try to console me and they seem to feel guilty
>Tries multiple other times during visit to same result

wtf is wrong with me? I didn't hate it but i felt so overwhelmed and guilty.

anyone relate or have similar interesting stories?

Im a fucking moron who couldnt figure out myself at age 25 and started HRT. Ive been such a submissive child to my parents and just barely got through school and just lived at home while working for the past 10 years. I never felt attracted to anyone, never had any plans for relationships, never had an idea what I was going to do with my life. I just wanted to be nice to everyone and do the hard work and do the right thing. Im not a crazy person but around 25 I couldnt fucking handle giving so much of myself to other people with 0 return so I just flipped. I basically started threatening my parents, got frustrated with my friends, and just started doing Hrt because I wanted to appreciate myself more. Ive never done anything that impulsive/experimental before but I got so frustrated with my life, I just I wanted to shuffle my cards and do something new.

Now Im 27 and far more confused than before and feeling stupid about myself.

and I still dont know what kind of bra to buy. What do I get thats like a binder/least noticable?

I want to go swimming with friends this summer but they dont know ._.