>for like 3 months I did drawabox and drawing on the right side of the brain excercises
>showed incredible discipline (for me), literally drew and practiced every day
>stop for some reason
>now it's been like 4 months without drawing

I don't understand how I could be totally disciplined for a long stretch of time, but now I keep telling myself I need to draw again because I feel empty without creating, but I haven't been able to will myself to actually do it

såhär ser jag ut när jag tänker på era förfärliga livsöden

How many of you here are actually just cowards. I had a revelation tonight. I'm a an authentic coward. This is the only thing hat has stopped me my entire life. How did I become a coward? I really couldn't tell you but I am.

Its literally sickening. Today was another major test of my courage and I failed. I fled. I'm so sick of myself.

>want to say nice things to people but too cowardly to say them
>want to share my opinion but I'm too much of a coward
>I want to socialize and laugh and play but I'm too scared.
>I always told myself when SHTF I would be a badass

I'm such a fucking coward that even when I'm black out almost deadly levels of drunk people still thought I was a sober quiet person