What are your thoughts on Rick and Morty?

>go to bar in my neighborhood and everyone acts like im scary or an asshole
>go to restaurants waiters imply they're going to spit in my food
>try to hit on women they dont want me
>no job no experience huge resume gap
>no car
>never lived alone
>used to neet now have nothing
only thing i have is disability and im afraid they're going to remove it
im honestly thinking about going downtown at night and getting some hoodlum to stab me to death or shoot me because I don't see a way out of this.
I know I need to volunteer or get some marketable skill
I need an income quickly but I don't have a car to uber, I don't have a car to get to volunteering for resume building or even getting a basic job.
I feel completely hopeless about my situation.

the only place near me enough to work at, I talked to them for weeks trying to get some work and they just jerked me around lying to me instead of even telling me they didnt want me