Just made this photo to vent. Made a thread last night but apparently my censored body is considered porn now.

HRT + transitioning had done so many things I didn't expect and i feel like i'm not in control anymore I was toned and athletic twink before and now i have like a soft and round mommy tummy which gives my torso a pear shaped appearance. No amount of weight loss or exercise can make this go away because estrogen just causes more fat to built up and anteror pelvic tilt is just shaping my body to look like this and trying to stop it barely delays the inevitable. I have like weirdly large swollen tits and engorged nipples that people comment on now and make me self conscious. I have literally no upper body strength, I am 67% as fast and have about 50% of my endurance as before.

More importantly though my emotions have become literally pathetic. I cry when i'm sad and I literally whine and beg for things I want now. I was bisexual and leaning toward women before but I have only had receptive anal sex with men since transitioning i.e. straight by default. I'm basically emotionally dependant on my boyfriend, my life revolves around supporting him and getting ready for married life. The only thoughts in my head are about food and comfort and i know it's a cliche but my internal monologue is literally gone. I can't give myself an orgasm anymore because I'm barely three inches when semi hard, m which is painful. Like all I can do is lavish care on my appearance so my boyfriend will want to put his penis inside of me and cum in me so i feel needed.

I'm just frustrated about being turned into a weak willed castrated faggot bitch, just being arm candy for my boyfriend in every way. And yes I know that makes me an ago misogynist to think that andbthat real women are feminists and shit or something so roast me allyou want.

I thought i was straight. I tried as hard as I could to be loyal to my boyfriend. But now I'mslowly falling in love with a she/her hrt femboy who is cuter than any girl. She gets me, and she shares the same life goal as me. She has a boyish charm despite passing flawlessly. I've totally lezzed out.

What do i do? I'm worried if I break up with my boyfriend he'll kill himself. I love him but we just don't have a perfect connection like i do with another trans woman.

The trips shall judge me, and The quads shall decide my fate.

>tfw you find out the girls only group chat at your workplace