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Anonymous /lgbt/40455065#40455065
7/21/2025, 1:20:17 PM
any other trans women here (especially 25+) just struggle with like constant depression and loneliness? i don't have that many friends, i sort of can't get over the feeling that most of the ones i do have would be better off without me and probably wouldn't notice if i disappeared from one day to the next, at some point they just stopped being supportive and it feels like i'm only an occasional sounding board for them now. relationships... lol, not even worth trying being mtf and my age. been single since my last bf broke up with me a couple of years ago and haven't even really tried to meet someone else. there's literally no reason for anyone to want me if they could have anyone else, i'm not going to just embarrass myself by telling myself i can actually find love. i do "touch grass", i have hobbies including social ones, but ultimately it's just a few hours a week of hanging out with people who already have their own friends and don't really want to meet new ones. when it's over i just go back to an empty apartment. the way things are going i really feel like there's actually no point continuing to live past 30.
Anonymous /lgbt/40322216#40322401
7/8/2025, 2:00:37 PM
my mind's in a weird place today so i'm just gonna try and tell my story or part of it. i'm a terminally cynical shit-out-of-luck mtf, think of me as like a tranny moe szyslak. i grew up as an awkward ugly loner in a post-industrial shithole and everything has been shit for me and my family as long as i can remember, over and over in my life i've tried to turn my fortunes around and gotten kicked to the dirt again and found myself bitter and angry at the world. this happened again when i moved abroad for the third time in my life back in the winter hoping to get a new start. a few months later it started to disintegrate and i ended up in a psychiatric hospital after a suicide attempt.

ever since i got out it's been constant highs and lows. i had a couple of pretty bad breakdowns where i abused substances or hurt myself, i got blocked by one of my oldest friends and almost alienated another by cutting myself with the bathroom door open while she was visiting from abroad and leaving her find me in my room covered in blood and drunk. i've tried to clean my act up since this. i haven't cut myself in like a month and a half, i've had a couple of slip ups with drink but i'm two weeks sober rn, i've also been working out and eating better and i've lost like a stone. today is hard though and idk why.

i can't afford mental health support and my options here are even more limited than back home. i'm lonely as fuck here in general and have no actual friends irl, just a few acquaintances. recently i've tried joining things but it's too early to say if i'll make friends through them. i do feel like they might also just be acquaintances though, it feels like i just don't have enough in common with people to strike up a friendship for now. i sometimes wonder if i've just lost the ability to actually relate to others, positivity can annoy me really quickly and i tend to just assume everyone has an ulterior motive or is out to get me. how cooked am i?