>>81930677
I be geekin the hardest.
Weed ain't even a drug.

>put a loaded shotgun in my mouth safety off again today
>still can't get my finger to move one iota and depress the trigger
>literally sobbing trying to will my finger to move
>but it won't

I'm literally trapped being alive. It's so horriying and no one cares. Therapy is useless. I'm trapped with an 80 year sentence in hell and there is no coping mechanism