>>60579368
I'm at $700k in UK, age 27 got in at £8k about 2017. Faaaaar above average for my age but I know what you mean, I was so close to being a multimillionaire if I didn't make various absolutely retarded decisions as a teenager.

I suppose I could cope by saying that at least I didn't listen to the naysayers or that I still did well for a teenager but still doesn't change the fact I was just retarded and should have done better.

My biggest concern is if it doesn't even reach $150k this cycle I think it is time to be honest and admit the gains are going to be nothing like what they were in the past

I am tall, fit and attractive so get approached quite a lot when I'm out with friends yet always turn women down despite all the encouragement from friends and good social skills/general confidence.

I'm sure my friends think I'm gay. In reality is I was just so buck broken through child abuse I can't handle being hugged yet alone sex without freaking the fuck out.

My childhood was fairly awful growing up. Absent father who drank too much and left when I was young then my mother lived on benefits which she spend inappropriately. I no longer see mum see dad once a year. Growing up I had very poorly developed social skills, no friends, behavioural problems, underweight and got expelled at 16 before transferring to a new school where things started to turn around.

I'm 26 now and my life is utterly unrecognisable/unimaginable. I'm a newly qualified doctor, nice body and face, at least average social skills, hobbies, friends etc. I am a millionaire from crypto which at my age in UK is extremely rare. None of this is a larp it was the perfect combo of giftedness combined with natural drive/ambition/aggression then turned up to 11 due to the bleakness of childhood.

I can't stop focussing on the past. All the normalfag stuff and experiences I missed out on when younger cause I was mentally fucked, relationships missed, academic underachievement (I had better grades at 18 than the average Oxford student despite being expelled a couple years earlier yet went to a "good" uni) and just having a complete and utter void preceding my current life. My worldview is also very bitter cause I remember how horrible things were and how everyone including extended family pretended nothing was happening then denied it for years once I left home and started realising it was abnormal.

Anyone got tips for getting over this? Even though it's not possible I can't stop fantasying about a childhood with loving married supportive parents and it seems so unfair I didn't get this. I don't normally post here, not sure if it's NEET HQ here or what so sorry if it sounds insensitive.