>ASL
33/m/us (al)
>Mental illnesses
unmedicated adhd, depression
>Interests
animals/nature/manga
>Looking for
losers, fags, deranged ppl
>Not looking for
voice chat, young ppl
>Contact
yellowhammer256347

any trannies here sober or in the process of getting sober? i haven't drank alcohol in two weeks and i'm trying to make it through the whole month of july without drinking but god it's hard. i've practically gotten addicted to diet coke because it's the only thing that helps me ward off urges. i also managed to stay self-harm free for all of june but today i had a couple of panic attacks and almost lost my streak but managed to stay clean. i'm feeling really discouraged rn. :/

estrogen may stop you from masculinising as you get older but there's nothing worse than being nerfed by your own bad habits regardless. i'm 28 and i was really cute when i was a couple of years younger but untreated mental illness, alcohol, comfort eating and developing a sedentary lifestyle really caught up to me. ended up gaining over 15kg and now my torso is bricky as shit, my skin and hair got really shitty from neglecting them, i have hundreds of new self-harm scars because i relapsed badly, i used to have a cute style but i basically live in baggy jeans and t-shirts now. i'm working on fixing it, i got active again and i'm already like 5kg down and i've started trying to be consistent about skincare again, but i feel kinda shitty for letting stuff get this bad. essentially it's gonna just be a year of my life down the drain by the time i've fixed the damage. i can only hope it'll teach me some important lessons and that i'll bounce back even stronger. idk how to be patient and trust the process in the meantime, i keep ruminating and getting mad at myself for throwing what i had away.