Why do trans women think that I (a 29 year old kissless dateless handholdless virgin) am disgusting?

Why don't they respect me as a human being?

How do I find a woman IRL who I can love as much as Emi Ibarazaki?

>>212058957
She has always been the energy that keeps me going, ever since 2012.

I love Emi.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCowFcEXt0Y