my political ideology is whichever the hot girl im flirting with has

feels like im double lying to the girl. I have short face syndrome so I developed the habit of mewing and pushing my jaw a bit down and maintaining that face whenever im in public. My resting, which is technically my actual face, is ugly as fuck, like 3/10 while my mewing face makes me look normal. this isnt a perfect fix my profile still looks disgusting and whenever I talk or laugh my face goes back to looking ugly as shit. Due to this insecurity and me being very high on the NPD spectrum I became very particular about how I take my selfies, I dont use filters or anything my camera is pretty shit I just use different angles/lightning and select the photos that look the best, which surprisingly worked very well, women online are very flirty and usually initiate convos with me and im complimented they say i look like a model a lot which is good and all but is something i never experience IRL so i know im not actually good looking. I really want to use this to get hook ups but im pretty scared of rejection and feel bad about technically lying about my appearance twice to the girls. im horny as shit but i dont know if the emotional and financial investment is gonna pay off and its making me anxious as shit