>friend's mom offers me food
>It's disgusting but I have to choke it down fighting gag reflexes and tears
I did it. I ate it all.

Recommend some short and cool lit fiction with love story

I broke up with my girlfriend about two years ago. At first, I didn't think about her at all for 7 or 8 months. Still, then I started thinking about her and even dreaming about her in that dream we're dating, so that was weird but eventually it faded away. I stopped thinking about her, but after a few weeks, I would dream about her again. We're dating in every dream that I had about her, we're still dating. I've never a consistent in a dream before. I only make this thread cuz I dream about her again yesterday.

I don't think I can handle it anymore. I'm almost 20, and I can't keep thinking about a girl from high school that I used to date. Does anyone have solution on how to solve this problem?

Death is such a strange concept to me. Do you just disappear? No reincarnation, no restarting, nothing just eternal darkness. What was I doing before I was born? Will it be the same as it was before I existed?

Do you ever feel like you're living in someone else's body, as if you're just borrowing it? Like one day they'll come back and see how much of a mess you've made of their life? Am I the only that think like this?

IF I wasnt born as a woman i wouldnt be perceived as embarassing and weird. Nobody cares about my problems, the problems i didnt choose to have, problems that stole my years. People will just look at you and will take a shallow print of whathever they want to believe your story to be; lazy, dumb, weak, manly etc. What's even point of existing when you can only exist as a prostutite? You wont have anything in this world including a sense of identity if youre born as a flawed female; an error. Then you arent even human because you dont exist outside of your body, cant let to be exist more than your flesh. The only advantage of being trans i can think of in my country is its not being popular enough in here, so i could pass easier. But i dont have courage to do it. And its just i dont want it, it feels like the only way i can exist without having to deal with any of these stuff. Its tough though.
Sorry for repost.

I wasnt born as a woman i wouldnt be perceived as embarassing and weird. Nobody cares about my problems, the problems i didnt choose to have, problems that stole my years. People will just look at you and will take a shallow print of whathever they want to believe your story to be; lazy, dumb, weak, manly etc. What's even point of existing when you can only exist as a prostutite? You wont have anything in this world including a sense of identity if youre born as a flawed female; an error. Then you arent even human because you dont exist outside of your body, cant let to be exist more than your flesh. The only advantage of being trans i can think of in my country is its not being popular enough in here, so i could pass easier. But i dont have courage to do it. And its just i dont want it, it feels like the only way i can exist without having to deal with any of these stuff. Its tough though.

I can tell that my parents know I am still a virgin at almost thirty years old because they constantly bring up if I will ever get married and have practically alluded to the idea that it would be okay if I brought a woman home to fuck. My dad looks at me sometimes with an obviously deep concern in his eyes and says huh son you never really have seemed to take much interest in girls. What a humiliation ritual.