>>81815966
I'm proud of you, anon
You've done the hardest step which is admitting and acknowledging life could be better, then you're taking steps to get it there

i've been listening to the OST and its making my eyes water, robots

To the anon that made the other thread with this image, I apologize for being rude to you. I don't know you or who you are. You shouldn't do anything drastic.

Take care man I hope things work out for you

I'm so unwell. I don't know how not to give up. I went through so much bullying that I wanted to kill myself. I'm struggling really hard in school. Really hard. I lost all my friends and interests, and then I met someone who cared about me deeply, eventually became my best friend and I lost them too because I had a really bad mental health issue, it hurts so bad because even if I get better it doesn't seem like they'll ever forgive me enough to trust me ever again or let me back into their life even if I completely change for the better. But yesterday they told me they forgive me and they also said something which removed a lot of my worry because I thought something that wasn't the case. I lost someone who was like a family member to me that same month, on my birthday, for same reasons. So my best friend and that person on the same month. And in that same period I hurt my family too. I can't forgive myself at all. And now I received even more bad news. I literally don't have anything to left to live for at all, every hope I had for a life that doesn't hurt has died. And everyone will always view me as a special needs retard. I try to tell myself something will be okay but I don't see how, I can't even imagine anything not hurting at any point. I can't imagine a neutral state, I'm always so unwell. I hate myself and I wasn't meant to be born. I'm too broken for life. I literally don't know how to do this. It's been so painful since forever. I've been trying to tell myself it gets better since I was a little kid. I just want it all to stop but I don't want to hurt everyone even more by killing myself. I have been completely broken by life and I really don't know what to do

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>>712697272
these people are to innocent for this wretched world

>>81485887
Same here. I feel that while young, a large amount of normal people require antagonism to understand each other. This number of people dwindles with age because some grow out of it. Now that I am older, they ping each other at very rapid speeds with their conversation which I am completely unable to keep up with. It is simply not enough to be present, but one must jump through mental hoops to stay on par with their mental games (and expectations). Having failed these many times, I have found myself learning to enjoy isolation.

I hope that I can find people who are not like this but it requires two to tango, so to speak. My odds are abysmal, but nonetheless I will try and I hope you can too, anon.

>>81485960
That saying is generally useful to recognize inconsistencies and the inconsistency here is autism spectrum disorder.

>>81485982
To make sense of this, it should be read as "learn to be mean and rude to others in measured amounts." Having been bullied in much the same way I expect OP was, I have realized that the solution to my problems as a teenager was to be outright disrespectful. If someone is an absolute cunt to you, you must be equally mean (or even worse) back to them.

I will now demonstrate (including this same post):
>>81485969
>>81485982
Both of you need to learn to read a book or kill yourself. The DSM-5 is free online yet you choose to be illiterate faggots.

Please note how the words written just there aren't really helpful. I could have kept it just as brief and made a coherent point about ASD or different personalities or whatever, and it would have been better-taken by anyone reading in earnest. Sadly, that is not how most people (both autistic and normal mind you!) operate. In other words, sometimes people genuinely want to get punched in the face and just gotta let them have it.
yw for wall posting