I fucked my lower back on a bad deadlift rep and I was supposed to get laid tonight

how would you guys go on living in my situation
>red state
>too broke and autistic to move out
>too lazy and autistic to transition for real
>6 years of boymoding
>retarded and bad at my low paying job
>will be fucked when Mother dies
>everything fun or important feels undercut by the fact i can't even be a twink let alone a real woman

it all feels pointless and overwhelming and if it weren't for the fact i owe some online friends some money rn, i'd probably sui

muss wieder zur arbeit

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bin zu fett für dieses Klima

>>18006001
my gimmick is that i keep failing and i will never change

i dont want to b trans anymor