i swear veedol keeps fucking with her voice she sounds so crunchy and deepfried today I AM NOT CRAZY

NO STOP I DONT WANT THAT STUCK IN MY HEAD
AAAAAA

I dont even want to be a woman anymore. It wasn't for me. Transitioning is not for me. I literally want to be a man on some level now. But the thoughts just dont go away. And I feel more depressed off hrt. But I don't want to "manmode" or whatever. I don't want to be a man on hrt. I just want to be a normal dude.