>>40715309
>>40715330
I don't remove people because I don't like them it just happens when I'm going thru an episode
I am in pain constantly, I'm medicated but it doesn't seem to help much, I've been on many different meds, seen many therapists and have a psychologist and psychiatrist I see regularly
distancing myself is the only thing my brain can think of to stop the pain
but even the people I explain this to and say "oh yeah I understand I'll add you back no matter what" never do
my irl best friend I've known for 13 years so I know that I'm capable of maintaining a relationship, and I've had long-term online friends but it seems to just be getting harder and harder nowadays
I'm very lonely all the time, I rarely leave my room and talking to people makes me happy but suddenly my brain will flip a switch and it decides that everyone hates me, which by the replies in this thread is probably true
I'm sorry I want to be frens with most people I never remove people cuz I don't care about them except gum
https://youtu.be/md_jLXlptEg?si=TOWBR2ldYhKE1iFT
