>>23119853
>waking up, tasting food, feeling the sun, maybe reading, hearing different things, creating things
i cant enjoy food, i dont get hungry, i despise eating, its a bothersome chore, sometimes i go days whitout eating because i simply dont feel like it, my body is constantly shaking and convulsing because of nerve damage which also makes it near impossible for me to go out and socialize in any sort of way unless im heavily intoxicated, every single waking moment is just horrible and when i sleep there is nothing but nightmares, i dont know why but it feels like tiny ballons are constantly inflating until they pop inside my brain, if there is a surgery to nuke my brain and turn me into an unfeeling zombie i would take it in an instant, anything would be better then this self made little mental hell of mine
