I think i'm going insane. Like literally coo coo crazy with delusions, scenarios made up in my mind and shit. I'm angry all the time, horny and lonely. Travis Bickle tier.
>living in a shitty apartment
>some faggot and his girl are really really loud until like 1 am lately
>sunday night, i want to go to sleep early, these absolute NIGGERS are having a house party until 1 am, i her a women giggle, i get so angry i can't sleep so i just do pushups until i'm exhausted, pass out at 4 am
>i wake up at 5 am
>think it's an old fat guy next door (i had some beef with him but we usually don't interact at all) and his wife
>it keeps happening
>i'm completely fucked out of my mind with sleep deprivation, massive doses of caffeine, 1k calorie deficit and daily exhausting exercise
>mad as fuck, thinking how i will just beat him up next time i see him
>i'm running on hate like it's gasoline
>actually see him on a street
>he walks towards me
>only violence on my mind
>don't just push him with my shoulder, fucking crash into him
>turn around to punch him
>he INSTANTLY punches me in a jaw
>i cross him right in the face
>we're both still standing
>yell FUCKING FAGGOT WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SO LOUD AT 1 FUCKING AM I'M GOING INSANE I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU
>...dude, are you joking? I go to sleep at 8 PM
>no fucking way dude you're and your wife are laughing until 1 AM I CAN FUCKING HEAR YOU
>dude my wife has left me 3 months ago
>oh shit.jpg
>you're shitting me, your apartment is right next to my living room, i can hear you talk all the time
>well it wasn't me, i mean you could just talk to me instead of trying to start a fight like a fucking retard.
>oh shit yeah you're right sorry i didn't think about it haha
>we shake hands and leave