>>537912425
I hate all this
>Woah, big woman crush my head between your thighs
schtick. The whole appeal of big women is bringing to light their feminine side. Finding the sweetness in vinegar if you will.

people are being people. I think that's great

>>33415349
and so
she announced her marriage and im miserable
i dont want to be i didnt try to like, get weird about it like this and it just came out of nowhere and it's ruined me i cant eat or sleep or do the things i used to do to distract myself or enjoy my time
i can hardly cry and when i do it comes out in spurts and it gives no catharsis
i cant function at all im miserable
its just a streamer getting married but like, she's such a catch and the guy's lucky to get her and i just have no one and nothing and the light has shined on that
i cant enjoy any streams any more and im just wallowing

i dont even know what advice im asking for
i just hurt so much and i cant get away from it
i boot up a game and i shut it down in 5 minutes when i think about nimi
i lay in bed and she comes up
i go to the gym until it doesnt hurt any more and i fail after 5 hours
i cant sleep, im not hungry

sorry i dont really post anything anywhere, i dont chat in streams or post here or anything, i just read, so my writing is shit
actually, looking at it, no one's reading all that
fuck you guys or good luck or whatever