https://youtu.be/btQM65LGTko

im sorry i have work in the morning goodnight
>>40854144
>>40854153
what other options are there time is running out. i didnt get ffs in time, i didnt change my gnder stuff in time. i was trying to bide my time do things under the radar but its all falling apart. i cant handle life and i have no friends to seek comfort in. i could but im too autistic to be comfortable in regular relationships. i keep writing suicide notes and making plans and im tired. theres no escape from this curse besides maybe death
>>40854174
im just not happy anon im tired being uncomfortable. have been since i was a child. i wish i was made regular, the copes wont keep working forever
>>40854184
im prolly the most chill mentally ill person desu, i dont make it anyones problem i just work and go home and post my music on yt and hope for a better future. sorry to shit up yur thread but ig ive been paranoid as of late and the dysphoria dosent go away. im just tired anon im sorry
>>40854198
ill make quite a few songs before then anon maybe sad stuff so people can hopefully see that some of us are just tortured souls. harmless and in need of help. idk what to do anymore. i cant keep crying everyday anymore. i just wanted to be happy

https://youtu.be/btQM65LGTko?si=C60DY0ckWq4Kv_gR

>>40853939
every used good deserves one last home to die happy in. jkjk but ive never seen shampoo at mine lol
>>40853962
yeh i know. i used to have a tapedeck but it broke. i made songs on that too with the shitty mic that was attached to it. vidrel

i wish i was human

i want to scream

i told a friend i was getting surgery and she said "oh for your face?"

i ate food. one herculean task down

>>40393439
Me neither nona. Best I can do is beg for attention on 4chan and even that doesn't work so well.

My browbone makes me really fucking depressed.

https://youtu.be/LFbQQzkZuqU?si=yZvKOwNjFsco9xcZ

gn all

>>40341026
its me everyday :p fuck i miss him so much im a retard that needs to be put down. i prolly hurt him a lot and thats the last thing i ever wanted to do, fuck i liked him so much and he did me i think. fuck fuck fuck i still tect him from time to time hopiong i can rekindle things but i think thats selfish and wrong and it wont happen cause he has a gf i think fuck i needa ack. ok immma sleep cause im dooming now gngngn aaaahhhhh
>>40341045
im sorry anon its a hard road. love sucks but uit feels so good when its there. idk why i did it i just didnt feel good enough cause he was so cool fuck. i still overthink this too much and its been so long.
>Getting close is real and important
too true i almost hate it tho it gives me so much anxiety. i aint had it much in life so when it does i get stupid and dont know how to communicate it. i dont get emotion. i dont get life. i hate it. have a good night anon

bye

yeh i still mostly keep to myself these days. never truly formed any coping skills for my deep rooted paranoia of people finding out im a fag. never really formed any social identity cause of it either. im so lost, devoid of any tru human experience