Humor me and assume that my story is real, not a hallucination. What would the implications of this story being real mean?
>when I was manic, I wanted to be androgynous like David Bowie
>most stuff that happens in mania you forget, like a dream
>but this one thing I remember is this: my wife either revealed her true personality as being some kind of higher being, or was temporarily elevated to the status of a higher being
>in addition to touching my back in strange patterns that seemed to be messing with my "angelic circuitry", she grabbed my Adam's apple, raised it higher like it was a switch and it stuck higher in place, then told me to "Try talking and see how your voice sounds". It did sound higher pitched, not like a woman but more like an androgynous/feminine man.
What terrifies me about this is I am a Catholic, and all sorts of transgender/genderfluid/whatever you want to call it is considered a sin and demonic. That being said, rather than elevated to a higher divine spirit, is it possible my wife was possessed by a demonic spirit? Was the touching of my Adam's apple and my back an evil thing and not a good thing? Or is there some other interpretation you would make about what exactly my wife is/was during this time? Or is Catholicism incorrect and its okay to be an androgynous man like Bowie?