>>938870156
>im gonna turn to dudes.......
I've kinda started doing that, but I'm honestly unsure if I'm actually bi or just that lonely.
I had one girl that I had a thing with in college, but she was a bpd chick who would alternate between extreme affection to none at all/going back to her abusive ex. I was an autist so didn't really go anywhere either, most was one night cuddling and kissing at her place, but I never had the balls to go fully all the way then, and that was it.
After that, mainly for becoming more of a recluse, didn't really meet new people anymore, other than online. Somehow, a guy I was talking to online just started ERPing with me, and I kinda went along with it? Thought was just jackoff buddies at first, but at a point I became affectionate to him, but with it being online I think it kinda doesn't really count.
That ended, and now kinda found myself in a femboy sending pics to me, and possibility to meet IRL, and I still have no idea how I feel about this, or what the fuck he even sees in me. It's nice to have somebody care about you, but is that worth all of this? I still don't know, I'm just kinda doing whatever at this point
Also FUCK thread moved, but spent a while writing so still posting here