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I'm happy that you have a place to stay and that you're keeping tidy. That's really important to a healthy mind. A lot of people live with things in their environment which assault them in some way. Anxieties of things left undone, bad memories associated with things not yet removed, etc.
I never really had a good family in the first place. In fact, they were fucking terrible. Even though I've done my therapy and I'm legitimately over it while at a great place in life, I still have to self censor my own childhood and family because even things I think are casual will net the response "Jesus fucking CHRIST anon, that's fucked up." Throws the whole conversation off and sucks lmao. One thing I can say from my position is that you can build a really great "family" for yourself in any case. There have been people with whom I've made friends at school or work who have become genuinely distraught that I don't have a family in the proper [traditional] sense. You straight up have to talk them down
>It's fine, it's fine I'm over it lol
>Seriously! It WAS fucked up, but you see me now, right? I'm obviously good so chill out
>Yes they were very mean to me and no I did not deserve it but it's over now and I'm here with you because you are not mean to me
I probably get invited to more holiday gatherings than a lot of people who DO have families.
Nobody has ever said much that has mattered to me during the times when things fell apart in life, so I don't know if I could even help you that way. You seem very reflective and self aware, despite clearly being hurt so badly. I am confident in you that you'll get through this and build a life you wouldn't believe could be possible if I told you about it today.