Thread 41348149

I don't know if I'm a schizo or there's some spiritual meaning behind this, but 2025 has been by far the absolute worst year for me, and I've been suffering so many losses left right and center. I've become incredibly blackpilled as a result, and everyday I feel like there's no hope left for me, that there's nobody left out there who doesn't immediately shove the blames of the broken society down my throat without taking the time to look deeply into my past (and my soul) and understand why I am the way I am.

I've recently noticed that there's been quite a few more flies in my apartment this year compared to having almost no flies at all from 2017 to 2024 (I live in a group home with 5 other individuals who each live in their own apartments). I always keep my apartment nice and clean, and I make sure that there's no food and/or crumbs laying around, but no matter how clean my apartment is, many of the flies just seem to specifically make their way towards my apartment as if something is drawing them towards it (the staff have told me that my apartment looks and smells clean). The staff and the other individuals cook food often, and the other apartments as well as the community room are somewhat messy compared my apartment, so it's obviously not just the food that the flies are attracted to. It's not my body either since I shave, shower, and change/wash my clothing.

I'm beginning to wonder if the sudden appearance of the flies in my apartment is some kind of warning from the divine spirit, like something very bad is happening to me. I'm considering getting some kind of thing to put underneath my apartment entrance door to block them from entering because I don't want to have to kill them when they invade my apartment (I really don't like killing anything, even if it's a fly, but when there's too many of them invading my apartment, I have no choice but to kill them, especially when it's fruit flies).

>>41348149 (OP)
Probably, but if I tried to corroborate your story with my own experience people would think I'm nuts.
However, if I quote the bible and talk about Baal aka Satan being the Lord of the Flies, people would consider it normal and socially acceptable theological discussion.

>>41348149 (OP)
There is no culture in the world, or at least none about which I've read during my profoundly autistic studies, that respects flies more than begrudgingly. They get the undifferentiated love sometimes that all animals get from kind cultures but never any specific respect. Not even as much respect as the parasite. Flies are just hated.
We see them on shit and rot. They land on us and hover/annoy. Pretty much everybody has a visceral disgust reaction to flies landing on their food, even if they're the type to eat it anyway. I have always associated flies with hatred and refuse for that reason. Like a bad guy from captain planet or some shit.
That said, flies have several life stages and you said you live in a group home. Sounds like you're a clean person but the flies are hatching and spending their larval stage somewhere else in the building. Your room might seem like such good real estate to them specifically because it is currently maggot-free.

If you want it...
You should put a ring on it...
Too much to unpack anon...
Your life is shit...
Ok we get it...
Do we believe you fuck no...
The difference we share...
Is nothing but a thought...
Flies where the only pet one could...
Humour once apon a movement...
They have always been loyal company...
To digestion...

>>41348210
>>41348297
I appreciate your answers. Perhaps I'm just confused and distraught from all of the rejection and abuse I've suffered throughout my life to the point that I'm making connections where there isn't any. Regardless, I'm still going to find something to prevent them from getting into my apartment, because I don't like killing anything. Picrel is the kitchen and living room in my apartment, and I also made a cool video showcasing a bit of my bedroom:
https://files.catbox.moe/u4vrpf.mp4

My family no longer even cares about me, and the recent fight between me and my brother has now permanantly severed the connection between us. I have no family as a result, and the loneliness and inability to reconnect with the world has taken a severe toll on my mental health. No amount of meds, restrictions, and "TOUGHEN UP, BUTTERCUP" will ever be able to heal the decades of damage my family has done to me on the deepest levels of my soul. Only love and forgiveness can heal me, which the world currently has none, not even the love from a woman.

There is at least one good thing that I still have in my life, and it's my creativity. If people knew the potential I have within me, they would help support me and bring out the best in my creative capabilities.

>>41348752
I'm happy that you have a place to stay and that you're keeping tidy. That's really important to a healthy mind. A lot of people live with things in their environment which assault them in some way. Anxieties of things left undone, bad memories associated with things not yet removed, etc.
I never really had a good family in the first place. In fact, they were fucking terrible. Even though I've done my therapy and I'm legitimately over it while at a great place in life, I still have to self censor my own childhood and family because even things I think are casual will net the response "Jesus fucking CHRIST anon, that's fucked up." Throws the whole conversation off and sucks lmao. One thing I can say from my position is that you can build a really great "family" for yourself in any case. There have been people with whom I've made friends at school or work who have become genuinely distraught that I don't have a family in the proper [traditional] sense. You straight up have to talk them down
>It's fine, it's fine I'm over it lol
>Seriously! It WAS fucked up, but you see me now, right? I'm obviously good so chill out
>Yes they were very mean to me and no I did not deserve it but it's over now and I'm here with you because you are not mean to me
I probably get invited to more holiday gatherings than a lot of people who DO have families.
Nobody has ever said much that has mattered to me during the times when things fell apart in life, so I don't know if I could even help you that way. You seem very reflective and self aware, despite clearly being hurt so badly. I am confident in you that you'll get through this and build a life you wouldn't believe could be possible if I told you about it today.

>>41348149 (OP)
You may be emitting some scent of putrefaction that you cannot smell, but they can. This could be a sign of poor gut health, or some kind of infection, maybe a yeast overgrowth on the skin?
Before jumping to spiritual please rule out the physical. Maybe you need a detox of some kind. Maybe your sweat is attracting them?

What are y’all boys in on

>>41348149 (OP)
Flies belong to satan.
He is the lord of flies.
Flies and evil are evil creatures representing the dark side.
Don't worry about killing them.

Something died behind a wall.

>>41348149 (OP)
>Is there a spiritual connection between flies and major negativity in life?
Yes, there is actually.

>>41348752
That video room showcase was extremely based, thanks for your effort Mr. Fly Anon. Don't really have anything to add, but I genuinely hope things get better for you soon

>>41348149 (OP)
flys find the biological components that result from your stress aromatic and tasty
>>41349284
why do they only come out with the sun if they are creatures of the darkness?

flies are spontaneously born out of filth, i often have them appear in the intermediate space inside my window.

>>41348149 (OP)
I see flies completely different because of my innate fascination with death and decay.

I see them as excessively diligent sorts which are also attracted to areas with strong essence of transformation; or to be harbingers of change. I don't see them as something tied to negative energy; but rather the breadcrumbs that lead to secrets.

They are also a species of insect that coexists with humanity; they have coevolved with humans for centuries by sneaking into human dwellings to deal with colder temperatures. As such they are symbols of cunning.

IIRC their related planet is Pluto which makes sense. So some people with strong Plutonian energy would draw them in. They get a lot of hate, but like cockroaches they are our closest insect analogues and are most welcoming of human energies.

I like the little prayers they do when wiping their forelimbs. It looks like they're honoring or thanking me for some reason. As such, I feel their essence is more like that of a helper essence; not a servant to be discarded but one that willingly assists those who's energy allies with theirs.

Note, this does not include parasitic flesh flies or blood sucking flies. THOSE are the plague brood that are active forces of destruction and death and an aspect of nature's need to kill in order to drive life forward. Death begets life, so nature creates forces designed solely to kill.

>>41351093
Forgot to add, Flies are also pscyhopomps that help clean and purify the soul.

>>41348149 (OP)
>Op doesn't know about the Lord of flies

>>41348149 (OP)
Yes. The darkest periods of my life were filled with blow flies. Whenever I have a major upcoming event the view of a fly beforehand ALWAYS leads to the negative outcome I did not want. Just this past week right as I called to see the status of a job application a fucking fly showed up on my car's windshield and did not fuck off while on that call. No job. Remember when the fly landed on Pence in 2020? Who won that election?

Fuck flies and fuck their master. Almost as bad as hearing/seeing a cardinal but at least a cardinal's negative effects can be negated by being following your responsibilities.

>>41348149 (OP)
I don't know, but 2025 has been my second or third worst year, and I've seen two carpet beetle larvae in my apartment so far - and never before this year.

i know why you have flies. the flies do not respect you. they do not respect you because you do not kill them. they smell your hesitation.
i suggest chemical warfare.