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>I look to other cities which are kind of nearby for connections.
Yes, this is excellent! Perfect, even, given your home town is not the easiest place to meet more people your age, let alone with your interests, or even people you would be comfy being out to.
>The people I know in person are usually an hour or two drive away, so visiting them is not always the best solution;
Do you also have an online contact to them?
>I also have issues gauging when to ask people to do things and when to let them ask me.
Can you give an example? Cause usually, I would recommend not spending much time worrying about when to let people ask you things. Some people just don't have the mental energy to schedule stuff they wanna do, others are so proactive you don't need to do anything at all. The best thing you can do is ask for feedback. But err on the side of "asking for 'forgiveness' rather than permission" on these matters.
>This is my fault.
It isn't, and if need be I will elaborate. Okay so you need a default groceries list you can rattle off without thinking and meals that are realistic for you to make given the circumstances. The difficult part will be accounting for their pickiness, but I am tempted to go in a different direction and say "fuck that, let's add meals exclusively for you you can prep". Is that a sane approach? Fridge space would help.
>my partner.
Let's start simple. You are not a coward, you are and were overwhelmed. This is not something that is difficult to navigate because of your ADHD, your depression, or your boundaries. It is what happens when people have very few life lines to cling to. The best thing you can do is to pull him into a support network that would survive a breakup, which CAN still include you. You being his life line suggests that the core issue is his lack of other contacts. Something you too are struggling to manage. How far away does he live?
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