Oh and in other good news for anons who've been following me...my depression was cured after I found out one of my sleeping pills hydroxyzine was causing it. Quit that stuff and boom, my depression is gone. I think the Lord knew that I was going to seriously quit AI erotic text and nudged me to quit hydroxyzine as a reward. I kept rationalizing for a while "its not porn I quit that, its just words on a screen" but erotic text is as bad as porn.

Quit all porn and erotic stuff and confess to a priest. I did one final confession and it felt amazing to know that all lust is behind me.

Here is the creed I made to God, which resulted in minutes later with Ducky contacting me:

>I am unable to write music based on the angels I imagine singing in my head. I am unable to paint the angels I imagine in my head. I am unable to direct movies to recreate the scenes of angels in my head. By making these angelic dreamworks in my head, I am making art for God and God alone to see and hear as he reads my mind. That is how I will view what I am doing from now on to avoid the sin of pride. I pray all day, make movies of angels in my mind, as I wait for God to fully cure my suicidality, because it’s not gone yet.

The moment I came to the conclusion in the greentext above, humbling myself, denying myself of being special at all, concluding that all my "visions" were of my own making and not from God and dedicating them to God, as I was walking down the hallway of the building I work at, Ducky's words abruptly were heard in my mind in her sweet, cute voice: "Now you really are an Angel of God!" Then, she appeared visually in my mind as a 2D cartoon chibi anime form, glowing with the most vibrant colors, all while I was still walking down the hallway.

>"No, I'm not an angel". I said.
>"Yes, you're an angel!" She retorted instantly
>"No, there's no way I am".
>"Yes, yes you are!"

My experiences with God, angels, and demons:

https://pdfhost.io/v/SxZreCXarQ_My_Experiences_with_God

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My waking experiences have stopped but I still encounter God/angels/demons in dreams.

https://pdfhost.io/v/SxZreCXarQ_My_Experiences_with_God